I do, I envision it, I see it, I feel it (sometimes). I am really working hard to stay on my fitness and weight loss track, and I think that sometimes I sabotage myself more than anything. I was doing so well. I look forward to my workouts, I started enjoying my workouts, my runs, my meal planning. Then one bite of pizza turns into, not working out the next day and eating ice cream alone in my car during the day.
I did a mud run nearly 2 weeks ago, and it seriously kicked my ass. It was harder than I thought it would be my feet were tore up afterwards, I was sore, and basically being a baby. Instead of committing to get stronger and work harder for the next race. I only did a couple light workouts, and let my eating just go, it was a basic feeding frenzy.
So as I’m completely disappointed in myself and the way I am acting, I kicked up the workouts last weekend and this week so far I have been on track. I have eaten clean, but had insane cravings for junk, which for the most part I have staved off.
I have gotten on this fitness blogosphere and read what these amazing moms and women are doing at my age and their weight loss and fitness goals, and they just go and go and go. I know I have been doing this seriously for 6 months, but I think I should be winning a gold medal at the Olympics or something and disappointed that it takes me almost 40 minutes to do a 5K.
I just read Janet Evans is going to swim in the 2012 Olympics, Dara Torres is just a rockin’ athlete and mom. It’s funny because I feel somewhere between Frumpy Middle Aged Mom and Amazing Athlete. Because we seriously know I’m absofrickinlutely NOT going to be anywhere on the Real Housewife spectrum.
So I may get to all of these fitness goals, but I think if I do them at my pace. My goal is still to do a ½ marathon in January. I have another 30 lbs I’d like to lose to get me to the 100 lb. mark.
I’m putting this out there for accountability and suggestions. To all you fit bloggers. Please bring it on. I need help on how you get through the doldrums? How do you consistently stay on track?