Monday, November 28, 2011

Before, During, and always In Progress

I spent a couple of days at my parents house over the holiday break.  On an insomnia attack, I was going through old photos of my moms on the computer, and was absolutely friggin stunned at what I saw.

I have been on this fitness journey for most of this year, I started and fell off many times last year, but in March when I hit the 1 year cancer free mark I went balls out and have worked to get and stay fit.

Well what I found on the computer was depressing.  I don't know, how I didn't see it before, but my Lord how did I let myself get like that?

That unhealthy life had to be a contributing factor to getting cancer, along with the genetic factors I had working against me.   But the cancer was really what scared me into getting fit.  Not skinny, not looking better, but actually BEING better.  A better person, mom, wife, sister, daughter, friend.  I had no other choice to be around for my kids and care for them.  So I bit the bullet, and started walking, committed to exercising 20 minutes a day, and slowly changed my nutrition.

I did not join a gym or give any fitness guru a dollar.  I had been there and done that a million times.  I watched Biggest Loser, and thought if those chubettes could run, then my fat ass could run.  So off I went, and I just completed my first 10K and am training for my first 1/2 marathon.  I am a damn runner, it happened.  I really am a runner, I don't know how it happened.  I don't love running, but I NEED to do it.  I need to get on the tready or the road many times a week.

Before I started to notice the weight loss, I noticed the mental part.  I was on anti-depressants thinking that was a cure all for everything that had happened in a year.  Cancer, Autism diagnosis, husband in rehab,  craptastic economy, just crappy life circumstances.

July 2011 In Progress
But as a ran, I craved better food, I craved exercise and sweating, and getting out of drama and strife.  I don't want those things around me they made me fat, and I don't want to go back to this BEFORE, I want to stay "in progress",  I don't think I want to be an "after" ever, because that might tell my feeble mind that I don't have to work anymore and that I can stop.  I am choosing "Before" and "In Progress" - hopefully for always.  I am no expert, no guru, no genius, I just found something that is working for me and was able to tap into some online resources, and this is the most successful I have ever been at a fitness goal. 

If you are sitting there, just wanting to be different, you can, if I can you can.

October 2011 84 lbs off and happy and getting healthy

Before Cancer
November 2009 Before Cancer


  1. WOO HOOO!!! Woo hoo to the 84 pounds gone, to being cancer free, for a wonderful healthy life! I love that "In progress" and I'm so stealing it!! I want nothing but the best for you... keep at it girl, it's working!

  2. Well this is really amazing. I keep telling myself I CAN'T. That I'm not a runner and that I can't do it. But I know this is wrong and I know that anyone CAN, they just have to GO. Thanks for this.